Apparitions

by The Feverfew

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"Apparitions" was the debut full-length LP by The Feverfew. It was originally released on Eyeball Records in November 2004.

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released November 16, 2004

This album was recorded by Ryan Ball and produced by David Debiak at the Electric Fence Recording Studio in Paramus, NJ. Mastered by Dan Goodwin at The Clubhouse in Rhinebeck, NY. 2004. Musicians include Andrew Bethany Spiers (guitar, vocals), Jonathan Linaberry (guitar, melodica, vocals), Josh Nichols (piano), Ryan Ball (bass, drums, guitar) and Dave Debiak (guitar). Cover artwork by Laura Bellmont.

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The Feverfew Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

The Feverfew has a sound born in the South and dragged up through the East, landed somewhere between a Brooklyn rooftop and the sea. With unassuming posture, Andrew Bethany Spiers makes an impact. Spiers' lyrics are formidably poetic and steep him as a promising talent in a tradition of literary musicians that includes Patti Smith, David Berman, Thurston Moore and David Byrne, to name a few. ... more

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Track Name: Goodbye, Blue Monday
It's snowing on a Monday
as I am driving home
and the guilt begins to creep up
from the ones I've left alone
And on this road their bodies
still hang up in the air
between the birch's branches
where I last left them, there
And palm prints on my window
from her hands out in the cold
Now four years have gone by here
and I have gotten old

[ chorus: ]
And you said yourself
that I'm falling towards the sun
Like I disguise myself
to make you forget I'm the one
Like this was just a trap I built
and you are just a game I won
But I don't want to run

I remember counting white beads
as I sat in wooden pews
where I laid down my confessions
and I said a prayer for you
'Cause it's harder in December
and it's harder in the cold
and it's hard not to remember
all the lies that we have told late at night
Shifting shape under florescent light

[ chorus ]

The spray-paint said "salvation"
but I knew you wanted more
So I paint myself in blue light
and I unlock all the doors
Because the city is getting smaller
and I don't know where to go
and I spent my only dollar
hoping maybe you would know

[ chorus ]
Track Name: Selby
You pulled up, as if in a rush
said, I'll give you a ride I saw you miss the bus
I said, thanks, I'm looking to kill some time
I'll take you to your house or we could see mine
It's not very far and you'll like it just fine
We could leave this world behind

So I stayed an hour
A day and then two
Maybe you'll teach me the things that you know
But it's getting cold I think we should go

When the house was all boarded up
We said goodbye and climbed in your red pick up truck
and we drove off into the night
And I counted all the street lights
and you turned to me with a sigh and said
I'm willing to give it a try

We could be happy all over again
Find a place to begin

Then it's three months and we're still not there
And I've gotten thinner and you've grown your hair
We're looking for home, but I don't think it's here
And if it's September, my birthday is near
and you say there's nothing that I have to fear

We'll get it somehow
I just don't have it right now

Locked up the room and returned the key
and the manager waved to us uneasily
and we drove off into the night
And I counted all the street lights
and you turned to me with a sigh and said
I'm still willing to give it a try

We could be happy in outer space
where all of our demons will soon be erased
In a small quiet town we'll start over again
Find a place to begin

But this road just goes on and on
So I said, I'm sorry I'll miss you but I've stayed too long
It's time for me to go home
So you drop me off at the light
and I walk off into the night
find a quarter and pick up the phone
Track Name: By Now
You said you had nothing to say
and it's bad but I like it that way
Holding regret at my side
Taking success without pride
Just get in the car, I wanna go for a ride

And you go so slow
that I might know
by now

The letters all twisted and curled
trapped in the hands of a girl
who knows the words by heart
So is this the end or the start
should I give up and let us fall apart?
It seems like a lot to lose

And you go so slow
that I might know
by now

Then you realize you're playing a game
and the rules are all subject to change
and winning is more than making her stay

And you go so slow
that I should know
by now

So I say "goodnight"
under a broken streetlight
Track Name: The Night the Whole World Caught On Fire
At sunrise the seagulls all swarm around the steeple
of the church that stands tall in the middle of town
It's six on a Sunday and babies are crying
their mothers caught lying awake in their beds saying,
"Not yet, not yet. We could paint it white,
under the disguise of infinite light"

Now everyone's tired in this tiny town
and resentment grows up from way deep underground
while the faucets keep leaking
and the floorboards keep creaking
as we all lie and listen to the symphonic sounds that say,
"You know what's happening later tonight
so you savor the minutes you usually fight
'cause we all had a hand in this brilliant disease
We all fed the cause of catastrophe"

You don't know what you see
when it stretches far enough away from me
and it seems our love will have too soon expired
the night the whole world caught on fire

Now the dust settles down from the cold, cloudy air
and the few men left standing just silently stare
at the forests that glow with the forty foot flames
and the ocean that's screaming the sound of your name
So I pick up a shovel, the last thing to do
and I dig a great hole and go in search of you

You don't know what you see
when it stretches far enough away from me
and it seems our love will have too soon expired
the night the whole world caught on fire

You don't know what you see
when it stretches far enough away from me
and it seems our love will have too soon expired
the night the whole world caught on fire
It was the night the whole world caught on fire
Track Name: Perfect Ugly Amateur
(instrumental)
Track Name: Descending
And now in the mirror I see
the look on my face
it's half disappointment
and half disgrace

"Don't worry about it
it takes awhile,"
is what they all tell me
with the same false smile

It's okay now that I'm descending
'cause I've got plenty of time
to numb the pain with chemicals
ignore the reason for the rhyme

It's hard on a girl/boy who's alone in her/his head
and it's hard on a friend
It's hard on the ones who love you and know
you'd be better off dead
Track Name: Last Call
We have a small apartment
above an off-track betting club
and it's filled with angry losers
and ripped up ticket stubs
And the men all sit in plastic chairs
or lean against the walls
wondering if they'll make it to the bar
before last call
And they wander home at three a.m.
to fall into their beds
and think about the lives they lost
somewhere inside their heads

It's late
and you're not here
Somewhere in between the lines
you've disappeared

And now there's nothing left of you
A tired ghost in hospital perfume
The sky screaming in the dark
setting off the car alarms
So take it as a warning sign
or maybe just for piece of mind
When you're scratching at your scars
I'll remember who you are

Now the cigar smoke from an ugly man
slowly ascends the stairs
and it seeps into my pillowcase
and it settles in my hair
And I wake up feeling nauseous
'cause I know you are gone for good
And I wish there was some way to tell you
that I would help you if I could

But I'm not the one with the golden claw
I'm just another circus
I live above a furnace
and you're holding onto something worthless

And now we're out of time
wishing that I could have changed your mind

And now there's nothing left of you
A tired ghost in hospital perfume
The sky screaming in the dark
setting off the car alarms
So take it as a warning sign
or maybe just for piece of mind
When you're scratching at your scars
I'll remember who you are
I'll remember
who you are
Track Name: A Song, A Story
They come in the morning with brilliant parades
and in every small town we're losing our names
to the march of new children in five star brigades
with ten tiny fingers to tear at my veins

My words are not urgent
My melody plain
and all my epiphanies still sound the same
It's a song, it's a story
of your life and mine
as hard as we try the words are still intertwined

Somewhere on a rooftop two girls watch the sun
fall down beneath buildings
the day come undone
And without much warning they both disappear
and the sound of pianos is all you can hear
And you're out there somewhere
awaiting my call
but we get weighed down by the noise of it all
And the heart is a big place to get lost inside
but i hope that you don't think i meant goodbye

It's a song, it's a story
of your life and mine
and as hard as we try the words are still intertwined
It's a love without pretense
a card not yet sold
but something about this just makes me feel old
Track Name: The Gift
I'm a camera and you're the sun
I wake up early
'cause the whole world's come undone around us
Thank god love found just
two people in a big, big room
I've got a quarter
and I'm waiting for the moon to show me
every lie they told you about me
"Happy birthday" in a sad, sad song
I try to tell you but it always takes so long

When you hit your mark the arrow
pierced straight through my heart
where it got stuck in my chest
and now there's blood that's falling
all over your dress

Days go by
and I will follow
I don't mind
The night will fall
the sun will come again

And I can't stand the state I'm in
Got a ticket and I think I'm gonna win tonight
Yeah, I just might
ask you to sing along
You know the meter but you haven't heard the song yet
It's your sure bet
Three words and the gift of time
Four months and we fall into this rhyme without a reason
Maybe it's just the season

When you hit your mark the arrow
pierced straight through my heart
where it got stuck in my chest
and now there's blood that's falling
all over your dress

Days go by
and I will follow
I don't mind
The night will fall
the sun will come again

An awkward gesture or a pantomime
You take direction but refused to heed the signs
If not forever, we've always got September
and that's a start
I put my quarter in your heart
That was the best part
A door opens and I see the sun
I look at her and know that she's the only one
I have no doubt
Baby, take your camera out